-)Hardest Decision(-

Subject: -)Hardest Decision(- 6th January 2012, 1:15 am

Eli stood in between two beds, one had Scott asleep in and the other had Leon, the same night that they had been out together. He lowers his head and looks at Scott in just his boxers and moves over to his bed, pulling the covers over him and kissing him on the head. He sighs and walks over to Leon and gets down and watches his eyes open slowly. He smiles a little bit.
-)Elijah Reeves(-
Do you want to go for a walk.
He moves his hair from his forehead.

Subject: Re: -)Hardest Decision(- 6th January 2012, 5:34 am

-'] I see a welcome face when my eyes open seeing my boyfriend in front of me. I was still feeling unwell after last night but it can be blamed on a hangover and my first at that. I nod sleepy headed.

][Leon Ryder][
'Okay.'

-'] I let out a quick breath, collecting my jacket and putting it around me. I walk with Eli out of the room without waking up Scott. We head out of the building and walk across campus.

][Leon Ryder][
'..Good night?'

-'] I asked.

Subject: Re: -)Hardest Decision(- 6th January 2012, 7:48 am

Eli didn't know what to do because emotions and that stuff was never something he put into sex, but this was more than sex with Leon and he had put his emotions into this relationship. He looks at him.
-)Elijah Reeves(-
Leon..
He starts to feel angry and pissed of at himself and has to take a breath.
-)Elijah Reeves(-
...........
He has to turn away from his eyes. Those eyes that had drew him in from the beginning.

Subject: Re: -)Hardest Decision(- 6th January 2012, 7:55 am

-'] I was already feeling my eyes water up as soon as he started talking. I had always knew that this day was coming, and it had come quicker than I had ever wanted it to. I felt the cracking of my heart about to smash to pieces. I manage someone to keep it together for now.

][Leon Ryder][
'Your breaking up.. with me arent you?'

-'] I bite my teeth together, again stopping the tears.

][Leon Ryder][
'Scott right?'

-'] I couldn't keep from crying anymore as looking at the back of his head was bad enough.

][Leon Ryder][
'A... Am.. I a horrible boyfriend? I have... never.. been with anyone before.. if its ..something we can fix... i can change or we can talk about things.. I .. don't want to lose you. '

-'] I felt sick and just couldn't stop crying.

Subject: Re: -)Hardest Decision(- 6th January 2012, 8:05 am

Eli turns and pushes him against a tree and keeps eye contact with him.
-)Elijah Reeves(-
NO!
He was forcing him to keep confidence he had gained by making him stay strong. He closes his eyes and tries to not cry himself. He keeps arm into his chest to keep him against the tree. He seeths in anger and emotion.
-)Elijah Reeves(-
YOU ARE THE BEST BOYFRIEND ANYONE CAN EVER WISH FOR!! YOUR GORGEOUS, INNOCENT, FIT, LOVING, CARING, EMOTIONAL. YOU PUT ME AND HOW SELFISH I AM TO SHAME. WHOEVER GETS YOU WILL BE THE LUCKIEST PERSON ALIVE! I LOVE YOU LEON, ITS JUST I CAN NEVER LOVE YOU LIKE YOU DESERVE!! YOU DESERVE FOR SOMEONE TO LOVE YOU, AS MUCH AS I LOVE SCOTT. DON'T BREAKDOWN BECAUSE OF SOMEONE LIKE ME!!
He almost breaks but keeps him against the tree.
-)Elijah Reeves(-
I am doing this for your sake. I have never pushed the sex thing on you because you need to lose that to someone worthy of you. I can't just switch off from Scott. I can never forget him because we both changed each others lives for good and bad. Leon... I am so sorry.. and you won't ever understand how much i wanted us to work... but my love for you can never reach the level it is with Scott.
He gets close with his face.
-)Elijah Reeves(-
Leon, you have so much still to experience...this is not the end for you. DO NOT CHANGE FOR ANYONE!! AND DO NOT CHANGE FOR SOMEONE LIKE ME!!

Subject: Re: -)Hardest Decision(- 6th January 2012, 8:11 am

-'] I couldn't wipe my eyes and the tears just kept on flowing down my face.

][Leon Ryder][
'I wa...wa...wa..nted to.. experience it wi..th ..you.'

-'] I look at him.

][Leon Ryder][
' ... please don...t.. leave me. I love you.. so much '

-'] I wish this was not happening because breathing was now becoming harder and my inside felt hurt. He was breaking my heart, something I should have been prepared for but didn't expect it so soon.

Subject: Re: -)Hardest Decision(- 6th January 2012, 8:15 am

-)Elijah Reeves(-
I don't deserve your love.
He releases his grip on him.
-)Elijah Reeves(-
I am sorry..

Subject: Re: -)Hardest Decision(- 6th January 2012, 8:18 am

-'] I wipe my nose.

][Leon Ryder][
'Are you with Scott now? He has...has.. he has a boyfriend.'

-'] I stammer through emotions, stand in front of him, couldn't care if my face was covered in tears.

Subject: Re: -)Hardest Decision(- 6th January 2012, 8:22 am

-)Elijah Reeves(-
It doesn't matter about that now. I would be doing this with or without being with Scott. I have to stop playing you and MESSING WITH YOUR HEAD!
He points to his head and walks away.

Subject: Re: -)Hardest Decision(- 6th January 2012, 8:30 am

-'] I follow him, refusing to give him the feeling of walking away from his damage.

][Leon Ryder][
'What happens if you can't get with him? Are you going to stay.. single forever? When will it suddenly click for you.. when your 60? 70? Having wasted years of your life being alone. Eli, you have a lot to offer a relationship but you keep pushing people away in your goal to be with ONE person, no matter how much damage you do along the way.'

-'] I stand in front of him and bar his way into the building.

][Leon Ryder][
'YOU [tapping his chest] have broken MY [tapping mine] HEART!! I can never get you out of my head, drawing, thinking, talking about YOU!! Do you understand that? Do you even care? YOU have broken my heart!! I knew you would, but part of me believed you.. i blame myself more than you because your just a coward.'

-'] I take the E necklace off and push it into his hand.

][Leon Ryder][
' ....I will never forget you... '

-'] I turn quickly and run away about to go and die because everything hurt.

Subject: Re: -)Hardest Decision(- 6th January 2012, 8:34 am

Eli closes his hand on the necklace and lifts it up, blowing out and walking off.